All at once…

Listening to MM interview J. Greer this morning

I finally realized

That I absolutely do not want to invite you to my wedding,

Because I adored you,

And you liked sweet girls who drank a lot.

Because I adored you

And you hated yourself.

You charmed me

And resented me at the same time.

You were adorable

And trouble too.

It was too terrible seeing your parents that night.

Your reading in the theater district.

Your mom looks at me just the same

Like the daughter in law who got away.

Her eyes were so persuasive

That I needed a drink.

And listening to MM interview J. Greer this morning

I realized

I can’t invite you to my wedding.

It’s not spiteful or punishing.

I don’t flatter myself that you would even care.

But I don’t think it’s a good idea

Because I don’t want you to pretend

Not to hate me.

-ZG

4/29/14